MirrorEuler (mirroreuler) wrote in platform_934,

  1. What HP character do you identify with most and why?

    This is an interesting one. Growing up, my mum always tried to push me towards Hermione and definitely seemed to see me as similar. And on the surface, I always understood that – I read a lot of books (though far fewer these days…), tried to follow the rules, and generally acted much like a goody two-shoes bookworm. But I never actually saw myself in Hermione at all. She was so outspoken and bold and proactive. I could never be that confrontational or ambitious. Not to mention the Hermione is often referred to as being ‘the smartest witch of her generation’ - I got good grades in school but I certainly could never consider myself on the same level as someone like that.

    As a teenager, my best friend and I both got super attached to Luna. Part of it was for pretty shallow reasons – we were both blonde geminis and, at around thirteen years old, tended to fixate on other blonde, pretty girls, especially if they were twins. (Yes, we loved Mary-Kate and Ashley.) And we found her very entertaining as a character, forever quoting her or drawing pictures of her. But I wonder now if there was something else – that sense of oddness and distance from other people that we both resonated with. Both of us were always outsiders who sort of miraculously found someone similar to ourselves in the other, and have never really had ordinary lives or could relate to other people our age. I don’t think it’s a coincidence that Luna (and Hermione!) is often considered autistic-coded, when my friend and I are… I guess the best you could say is ‘ambiguously neurodivergent’ ourselves? But, especially as I got a little older and grew more out of my wicca phase, I came to relate to Luna less. I just don’t like believing in implausible things without evidence. I disliked Hermione’s meanness about it, just like I hate how disbelieving characters are always written as scoffing and condescending and smug, but honestly I couldn’t disagree with her conclusions. I vibe with Luna in varying ways, but there are major differences as well.

    No, there’s one character that almost immediately sprung to mind as correct here, and it’s Remus Lupin. I guess I never really considered that I related to him as a kid because he was a Man and Old, and even when I got super into marauders fic I tended to frame him more as a love interest than as someone like me, but I really think now that I saw myself in him all along. I’ve always found it hard to make friends and get along with people, but not because I’m mean or cold – in fact, I do my best to be agreeable and polite and nice at all times. Rather, I just feel different to other people, and I’m incredibly sensitive, and I cannot stand criticism or confrontation. I’m someone who empathises way too strongly, but I really struggle to stand up to people when they do something wrong. I try to be diligent and I like stories, but I’m no genius. I like to help out others if I can. As much as I struggle with making friends among my peers, I like looking after children, and I would really love to be a mentor someday, if I ever become good enough at anything to do that. We have our differences, but Remus is the character I think I can identify with the most.

  2. What one moment in the books was the most meaningful to you?

    Honestly, my favourite aspect of the books was never really the plot or even the characters – it was always the world. I could lose myself in the Wizarding world utterly – I always wanted to learn everything I could about this universe that I could find, and my greatest joy would be to be able to travel to some of these places in reality and spend some time there. So I guess in a way, my favourite moments are the ones of Harry discovering every new place – I actually think Philosopher’s Stone might be my favourite movie, and I could rewatch that scene of first arriving in Diagon Alley over and over!

    In terms of more specific actual moments… somehow I didn’t want to pick this one because it doesn’t feel very ‘representative’ of me, but the scene that I have the most vivid and emotional memories of is Sirius’s death. Or, not so much his death itself, but Harry’s reaction afterwards. I always hated people describing Harry as full of ‘teen angst’ in book 5 (my second favourite after 3… or is it a tie?) - he was going through so many difficult things and his feelings were totally justified. When Sirius died, I closed the book and looked up at the wall and I cried. But when Harry was talking to Dumbledore in his office, so full of rage and grief, I took all of those emotions on and I was just bawling. And then afterwards, when he found the mirror and realised how much struggle could have been avoided if he has just remembered it… there’s something very piercingly painful about that – the unfairness and random, chaotic nature of the world. The mundanity of forgetting a useful tool amongst all the fantasy of magic. Sometimes bad things just happen. It wasn’t the first time I read a story representing this grief (my favourite movies as a kid were The Lion King and The Land Before Time), but it was my first time seeing a recurring character I loved and hoped would get his happy ending just die, and to experience the extent of the impact on the cast, as they grieved and then continued moving on afterwards. I think it left a big impact on me.

  3. What would you see if you looked into the Mirror of Erised?

    I don’t know for sure. And the fact that I don’t know is part of what’s so difficult for me right now, haha. I want to be able to do great things, but I’m terrified of responsibility, and from experience whenever I try to do anything that could have a major impact it just stresses me out to death. I used to really want to be an activist. But I took a break a few years ago for mental health and after all this time, I don’t feel like those problems have resolved at all. Maybe I’m just not cut out for it. I want to change myself and become different – I really do kind of hate who I am sometimes – and yet I’m also… weirdly, illogically protective of the person I am now. I want the world to be okay for people like her. Maybe that’s a byproduct of empathy – I see other people in myself and don’t want to harm them by harming me.

    I think… I’d see myself alone. In a beautiful, colourful, whimsical house, living independently, albeit with one or two sensible accommodations. I’ve written books, bright colours festooned with praise, and there are letters scattered all around from readers who saw themselves in it and were moved. I’ve written fanfiction, which is harder to illustrate in a visual image such as a mirror, but they are just as important and garner just as much adulation. There are baked treats on my desk, made by myself, and they are good. I’m smiling softly. My world is quiet, pretty, and soothing. I spend my time doing what I love and I am good at it. My cat is there, too – exactly the same as he is in reality. Maybe, just to spoil the realism of the fantasy to breaking point, there is a baby. I’m taking care of them with a surfeit of love and affection, too.

  4. If you were to become headmaster at Hogwarts, what is one thing you would change about the school or how it operates?

    Kind of a cliché answer maybe, but these students really do need to learn more traditional schooling. They should know history, English, mathematics, and science. And I don’t just mean that they should learn these things for their own sake – though learning history helps IMMEASURABLY in understanding politics and policy, learning classical English texts can help understand other people who also know and reference them, and knowing certain parts of science can block against particular kinds of pseudo-science. Rather, each of these teaches important critical thinking skills that magic just isn’t very good for because the very definition of magic is that at its core we don’t understand how it works. English teaches communication and argument – both how to do it and how to interpret other people’s, and can help limit the impacts of manipulation and propaganda. Mathematics is everywhere – in cooking, in finances, in hobbies, and especially in statistics, and learning maths helps counteract a wide range of unhelpful cognitive biases and the like. Science, too, teaches how to evaluate information and reach conclusions, and once more how to argue and interpret others’ arguments. Same with history, which is sort of a specific kind of science. These kids need to learn these cognitive tools so they can protect themselves and understand the world and their impact on it. No amount of memorising the magical properties of different potion components can do that.

  5. If you were able to invent one spell, potion, or charm, what would it do, what would you use it for or how would you use it, and what would you call it?

    A potion for concentrating would be nice. Yes, yes, I know such potions exist in the real world, but I want one that I can make myself! :)

    A spell or potion for understanding other languages would also be amazing. I’m learning a language the hard way right now and I wouldn’t want to undermine that (though having a quick way to test my understanding would be good… if I have the willpower to try to translate beforehand), but there are all kinds of amazing things or even just interesting comments and stuff in other languages I’d like to be able to understand!

    This is super random, but I was trying to think of something a bit more whimsical, and: I’m surprisingly really bad at recognising constellations (there are too many stars!! I can’t block out the ones I’m not supposed to be looking at??), so a spell that could let you draw lines in the sky to pick out constellations would be fun! :) I have 0 knowledge of Latin so this is just my best guess, but it could be something like Sidus Linamenti!

  6. You have to venture deep into the Forbidden Forest one night. Pick one Harry Potter character other than Hagrid and one object (muggle or magical), besides your wand, that you'd want with you.

    For the person: Dumbledore! Not only would he be able to get us out of any difficult situation, he’d be able to do it peacefully as well. I wouldn’t have to worry at all! And I think he’d be a great conversation partner, too. If I had any questions I’m sure he’d answer, while if I just wanted to keep quiet and think or observe my surroundings, I think that would be fine, too.

    For an object.......… Well, I think all of our necessary safety things are covered, so maybe just a book on flora and fauna in the forest? Or general area? I’d probably just observe and not check much up, but it’d be nice to have! Either that or just a really nice warm coat, haha!

  7. What was your ideal job as a child? What is your ideal job now? Do you think it would be the same in the Wizarding World?

    As a kid, I had two main ambitions: I wanted to work with animals, and I wanted to write. Animals were just a really big interest of mine as a kid, and while I had a definite horse phase (I couldn’t decide between breeding, training, or riding horses, so I wanted to do all three!), I also just loved animals altogether and wanted to work with them. I think I sorta would’ve said I wanted to be a vet, but there wasn’t really anything specific about that I wanted to do, I just wanted to be around animals heh. I also enjoyed making up stories, particularly picture books, so at various points I wanted to do that when I grew up, too!

    As a teenager, I fell out from animals (I still like them!! But they’re not the obsession they were THEN), but decided I didn’t want to write for a job either. I eventually settled on law: I enjoyed reading and liked formulating arguments (history was my favourite subject because I loved piecing together various details and putting them together into a potential summary of how things turned out the way they did), so it seemed to fit my personality. But I always hated having to stand up and draw attention to myself and put myself to the test so publicly. It wasn’t even so much about being watched – I actually did drama for a while. It was displaying my own work – the best that I could do, that I had put myself into – for immediate consumption and feedback. No thanks.

    So, I searched for ways to use that knowledge (and degree) in other ways. I looked into activism, as I said before, but found it all too emotionally intense, and too… community oriented? When I really struggle to build relationships with people. Some kind of behind the scenes work might be good, and I’ve managed some of that, but politics as a whole has just become too draining for me.

    Now I don’t know what my dream job is. I want to be realistic and not pick something based on a rosy image of it, but whenever I listen to other people talk about their jobs, it just sort of sounds like everything’s awful unless you’re lucky enough to enjoy something most people usually need extra bonuses to be persuaded into. My best friend (the one who liked Luna with me!) is in academia, and I like the idea of it. I like learning and narrowing in on one idea and exploring everything about it. But my interests shift too quickly and often aren’t appropriate for academic study. And, in the beginning I chose law because I wanted something stable and consistent. Maybe I do just need to do something boring and pursue hobbies in my own time. I kinda hate to think of so much of my time wasted like that, though…

    Oh, I like writing again! Still don’t want to do it as a job, though. Writing is my way of expressing myself and really tapping into that imagination that’s constantly moving – getting out the things that pile up in my head and connecting to other people indirectly. Doing it as a job might stifle that, and as one of my few real joys, I really don’t want to lose it.

    I don’t think the wizarding world would change things much!

  8. What kinds of decisions are the most difficult for you to make?

    All of them? :P Anything affecting other people. There are just so, so, SO many variables, and I’m always scared of messing up and hurting them. And I’m just… extremely self-conscious in general of doing things in front of other people. I tend to miss things easily or just react to things in unexpected ways, but I hate doing anything ‘weird’ without realising. Sometimes I really want to just run away so I can’t impact anyone negatively anymore and I can take a breath and make decisions in my own time, thinking clearly, and only have to worry and think about myself alone.

  9. If you had the opportunity to live forever, under what conditions would you accept? And if you did choose to live forever, what would you do with eternity?

    It would NOT take much to convince me to live forever!!! I’d want assurances about the most awful possibilities – some kind of fail-safe in case I end up buried alive or I really do reach the heat-death of the universe or something – but overall, living forever sounds like an AMAZING thing! And I really don’t understand people who are critical about it. To me, that basically amounts to being suicidal. Just because a death is natural doesn’t make it any more okay.

    For what I’d do with it – take my time and enjoy it! There are so, so many wonderful things in the world and it pains me to think how few I’ll be able to experience! My to-read (or to-watch, to-play, to-listen-to…?) list is ridonkulously backed up as it is – I’m sure I could spend multiple lifetimes just enjoying as much media and culture as I could get my hands on! And I could keep learning my language, and get better and better at writing (hopefully anyway, haha!), and develop so many cool skills and learn so many things!! Plus, I could go to different places and try all kinds of nice foods and see sights… I’m not a huuuge one for travel normally but if I have eternity, why not?! And overall, just… relax. I know that having more time can be an extra stress because you feel like you have to be using it Well, but I figure that with eternity, at SOME POINT I surely must have to get over that and just be able to sit back and enjoy the atmosphere. :)

  10. What is one thing you would never want said about you?

    That I don’t care. I’d rather people think I’m completely incompetent and stupid but trying my best and just not good enough than that I’m selfish. If you’re incapable, you can at least get better eventually – figure out what you’re doing wrong or what needs to happen for you to function well, and gain some skills. Or you can be someone’s friend and make the world better that way. If you’re fundamentally a selfish person… then, I would feel irredeemable, and as though I didn’t deserve to be happy. And, if people look down on me, I don’t like that, but it’s not the worst thing. If they think I’m selfish, that might hurt them. I really, really don’t want to hurt anybody.

  11. Do you believe that moral actions should be judged by the intentions behind them, or by the consequences they create?

    It depends on what we mean by ‘judge’. I believe we should be deciding what to do based on consequences, not the idea of ‘doing a morally correct action.’ Placing the focus at that end rather than the actual impact it has on the world is the source of a loooot of bad things in the world, IMO. What matters most are the individuals affected by something. Their wellbeing and their feelings and thoughts and choices are paramount.

    However: whether we can say that a person acted morally of course depends on the knowledge and abilities they possessed. I hate it when people’s moral perceptions end up entirely down to chance. No, an incredibly reckless act isn’t ‘wise’ just because that one in a million chance happened! While if someone has been deliberately manipulated and sheltered all their life, their perception of reality is obviously altered – they can’t psychically know that what they’ve been taught is wrong!

    But, it’s one thing to not know something and another to be wilfully ignorant. How can you be a good person if you never look into what actions actually bring about good consequences? Caring about facts and reality are necessary components to being a good person. Otherwise, all you’re doing is making yourself feel better.

  12. What do you look for in a friend?

    Being understanding. I am… low maintenance to a high maintenance extent? I need a LOT of space and friends need to understand that I can’t express all of the ‘normal’ expectations of friendship. We also need to have some things in common – I need to be able to talk about things I’m interested in with people, or go activities we have in common. I really don’t like just ‘talking’ in general – I straight up cannot concentrate at all so it’s really, really draining.

    But, generally I don’t really ‘look for’ friends. If I enjoy being around people, I’ll try to do that more often, and hopefully they’ll feel the same. I don’t really seek out social interaction as a general thing, though.

  13. What trait most annoys you about other people?

    Being judgemental. I cannot stand people who immediately leap to negative impressions of other people, assuming the worst based on little to no evidence. You don’t need to bet yourself on everyone you meet – you have no obligation to give parts of yourself away to anyone. But you don’t need to make up some reason why that person is awful to justify your neutrality. Saying that someone has ill intent, or is fundamentally a bad person in any way, is an extremely serious thing (it allows and even encourages that person to be punished) and should only be done when you have a very good understanding of the situation.

    And likewise, it’s exhausting when people see other groups of people in even slightly different circumstances and can only criticise them. When they see people in poverty, for example, and assume they must just be too stupid because the speaker can think off the top of their head a thing that might work so these people must be all too dumb or lazy to do that. People are so instinctively judgemental all the time and I seriously can’t deal with it at all. I just can’t stand ‘sassy’ or ‘sarcastic’ people, either – again, it’s all just superior and condescending. The fact is, most people are doing their best with their circumstances, and circumstances vary a hell of a lot.

  14. What do you think are your top five abilities or qualities?

    1. I’m good at analysing things – breaking things down, seeing patterns, asking questions.
    2. I have a very big imagination – I’m creative and good at coming up with things.
    3. I try hard to understand other people and not think the worst of them. I genuinely really want to make things better for people.
    4. I’m a decent writer! Maybe a good writer!
    5. I’m curious and like to learn new things, which means I’ve built up a good knowledge base about the world around me.

  15. What do you think are your top five weaknesses or worst qualities?

    1. I’m very out of touch with the outside world. I’m so in my head that I really struggle with many practical things I should be able to do and don’t pick up how to do them.
    2. Likewise, it’s very easy for me to turn away from negative things and just distract myself. I’m always running away from other people and my problems.
    3. I’m way too emotional and really struggle to correct my problems because facing them just makes me feel totally useless and awful and then I need to expend so much energy digging myself out of that.
    4. I’m not physically fit at all. I’m not unhealthy per se, but I have 0 physical strengths.
    5. I’m very indecisive and tend to overthink things a lot.

  16. Name: Ally
  17. Age: 28
  18. Where did you find out about us? laurapalmer at Lands_of_Magic on Dreamwidth linked to hogwartsishome!
  19. Do you plan on being active in the communities once you are sorted? I’m not super sure what to expect of so it’s hard to say for sure? But I’ll definitely check it out and try to keep up with any new sortings that come in!

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